Week 40 has been a study in coming to terms with the fact that control is an illusion, a lesson motherhood is going to repeatedly pummel me with I imagine. I can walk the neighborhood for hours, repeatedly perform "labor inducing" YouTube videos until my knees give out from all the squats, and drink a gallon of red raspberry leaf tea every day, and it doesn't mean I'll go into labor. 

What really is great about this waiting time (if you can get past the urge to feel frustrated or anxious), is that this can be a week or two of intense peace and relaxation. No work; no baby. Yes you have cramps, heartburn, and swollen feet so it's not like you are feeling great, but you've had that for months now and it's almost starting to feel normal. My husband asked me about 2 days into my maternity leave if I was bored.  No; I feel amazing. Just being quiet with no due dates or deadlines or agenda items is incredibly peaceful.  And since I can't tell you the last time I had days off that didn't have some sort of to-do list item that necessitated taking a day out of the office in the first place, I've had a stock pile of great things I'm enjoying.

Podcast Walks

I've been trying to walk a lot this week since I know it should help induce labor. Roughly 3 miles a day is my goal, but unfortunately we've been in a bit of heatwave the past week in North Carolina which means I'm always trying to find the best times to take long walks before or after the temperatures get into the 80s.  I'm afraid to go too far from home just in case I get too exhausted or dizzy or something, so I've been sticking to nearby neighborhoods where I could get back to my house in a reasonable amount of time. Since the scenery is on repeat I've been adding in a podcast with the walk, which means I'm all caught up on my most embarrassing indulgences like Juliette and Amanda talking royals news on Jam Session and previewing the next season of the Bachelorette. 

Cooking (And Eating)

One thing I hardly ever make time for in my work week is experimenting with learning a new recipe. Like most normal human beings, I hate grocery shopping. If I'm tired from work and need food, I'm happy with cereal for dinner.  I could be happy with  cereal for 3 out of 3 meals. I realize this is not an ideal trait for an expecting mother who will need to be providing wholesome and nutritious meals for a child for the next 18 years. Lo and behold, actually having time to cook makes cooking so much more enjoyable. My two favorite experiments this week have been:

Smitten Kitchen's Cannellini Aglio e Olio

This hits all the buttons for me on a perfect recipe. It has simple instructions, only a handful of ingredients, fast cooking time, and most importantly, it's delicious. I will make this again and again.

I also tried out this General Tso's Tofu recipe. The flavors on the sauce were just not quite right (which I am ready to admit is most likely something I did wrong). If you have a favorite tofu recipe let me know because I'm not giving up on making tofu more of regular part of my diet.

Girl Talk

Whether it's been meeting up with friends for lunch, or just texting and chatting on the phone, it's been great to have a chance to catch up with my closest female friends this week. All the weird and disturbing body changes that I'm going through I can ask about without judgement. Plus I know that when the baby comes, suddenly conversations are going to be so focused on the baby and getting a chance just to connect with the women in your life that are sisters to you is so important and rewarding.